A WEEK OF ... MEH



It's been one of those weeks. There's really not much more to say about it. I kept breathing throughout it all and trust me that in itself felt like an accomplishment.


























It's probably something to do with the change of seasons. The fact that I've got a week off work to look forward to soon. Whatever it was I just didn't feel quite like myself this week. I tried persuading myself into letting go and just enjoy the sun but I wasn't really sad or blue or anything - I just ... Well ... Hello apathy.

Most days anything creative felt more like a chore than anything else and that's usually a sign for me to take a break so I didn't create quite as much this week. Probably because my heart was strangely quiet.
 
Even my Project 100 Faces seemed to come to a halt after going strong for 3 weeks and I knew something had to be done. So I took all the courage I could find and digged out the water colors I had bought weeks ago and finally used them. 

If you follow me on Instagram you will probably have seen my cries for help. I had totally forgotten how unforgiven water colors are. Every single mistake shows. Every stroke stays there, if it was intended or not. For a perfectionist like myself that's a lot to take in.
Now this is probably the closest I've come to making anything hybrid but it wasn't a two step process because my printer chose to stop working in the middle of printing my drawing. So half of her was missing and since I hate to waste paper I decided to paint her with my water colors anyway and scan it to add further embellishments along with the journaling. 

I decided that since the print was already ruined I might as well go a bit crazy with the colors and a new idea than the original turned up. My favorite part must be the purple lips. 

So I did the drawing in ArtRage, printed it on watercolor paper, painted it, scanned it and finished it off in PSE. I probably wouldn't have done that had it not been for the malfunction of my printer but I soon realized I needed to try it again.

And so I did. Now the web version doesn't show it but my brush left some very unfortunate dots near his nose and while I hadn't planned what I would use this for those dots along with a quote from Ripper Street was the inspiration for how it ended up looking. Strange how 3 little random dots can become the foundation for an entire page.

'It's a fool who joins a fight he cannot win....' Only time will tell if I'm the fool or not because I'm not certain yet that this is a fight I cannot win.

Practice makes perfect and I am still determined despite my lack of spirit to draw, paint and create and while I might not ever be perfect perhaps I in time will learn to reevalute my idea of perfection. 
Truth be told - I think I've found more inspiration just by writing this post than I've had all week. Perhaps this feeling of nothingness is finally leaving my heart. 
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  1. Lovely work, keep on painting!

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  2. The paintings are fun and creative. I understand about water colors, YIKES! I am so glad you will keep at it, the only way to tame it. The dots/lines look absolutely perfect with his face. . .would not have known any different. Thanks for the visit. Blessings, Janet PPF

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  3. In a way watercolors are forgiving as long as you quickly lift the mistaken stroke with plenty of water and a cloth. Just use the thicker paper like 300gsm. Your work is beautiful so keep going. Happy PPF

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